My research project is about how people view transgender women in media and entertainment. Im going to make a survey and hand it out to people and my classmates. And I will come up with my own statistics from college students. I will put that together with other statistics and my own person experiences. How people sees trans women in the media is very impactful on my life. We need to be normalizing trans women and the LGBT community, instead of sexualizing us. Crimes agents Transgender women and especially trans women of color is at an all time high. I don’t have much research papers to compare to because I hate research papers. But this I am passionate for and I will do my best to represent the trans community in a good light. I want to explore my finding with my class and whoever sees this. I want to educate you on the real life of trans women, not the glamorized, crime ridden and hyper sexualization of trans women.
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in ‘my name is Margaret’ is about Margaret a black 11 year old girl living in the south in 1964 during the segregation. Margaret who works as a servant for Viola Cullinan. Margaret sadly experienced Viola Cullinan trying to strip her of her identity by trying to shorten her name. as a transgender woman I know how important identity is and I have experienced people trying to strip me of mine many times. my blog is about my younger self and how her identity was almost taken from her. It was cold walking from my moms red kia into the catholic school I take my ccd classes in. As my black worn down Uggs patter on the black asphalt, my heart is jumping in my chest. I always hated going to my ccd classes, knowing the other kids despised me, making my time there horrendous. I walk up the green marble stairs with the metal trim up to the room where I would rather not be. I debate if I should pull out my phone and call my mom to pick me up, make up any excuse to not go threw those doors. I take out my phone and look down at the glowing cracked screen. Then I look up and my teacher and older fat man who’s name I cant remember is starring at me. ‘well are you just going to stand there or are you going to come in’ he asks me in a thick raspy voice. Great I think to myself, there’s no way out I have to go into that class room. The light above me flickers seemingly to my racing heart beat. I walk in wearing my loud sparkly Victorias secret legging and my blue zebra aeropostale hoodie with my vera Bradley wristlet on my wrist. I scan the room looking for a desk the farthest away from anyone, and with my fleeting luck a brown desk stares at me in the middle of the crowed room. I walk past him walking to the lonely brown desk, the worst of the worst, Thomas. I sit next to Thomas, I swing my mini vera Bradley back pack off my back on to my desk. Its like he recurved this seat just for me, so I am at arms reach of his hurtful words. I tuck my blonde hair nervously behind my ear and take out my ccd ‘god loves all’ book. ‘you look ridicules’ I hear is a smart voice, Thomas. I look over at him, ;why cant you ever just leave me alone, act like I don't even exist. Just like everyone else in this room.’ I ask him in a firm voice. His green eyes shower the room, seeing if I caused a disruption in the quite atmosphere. He notices a few people look over at us, as do I. His eyebrow raised in a smirk as if I challenged him, and that was the last thing I wanted. ‘why do you even come when you're already going to hell? your a disgusting abomination, and god hates you. My mom and dad say your sinning and that I don't have to call you Justinee or whatever you want to be called.’ He says loudly, with a look of power in his eyes. Everyone turns around even the teacher, I was hoping, that someone, anyone would help me. But none did, and that enraged me, I was only 13. A fire ignites in my chest bringing me warmth, and the strength I needed. I stand up ‘well your a failed abortion, and I don't have the need to tell you that every Monday. So how about you leave me the hell alone!’ I yell out at him, fighting tears that are starting to well in my eyes. Sit down! The old fat teacher yells at me. ‘no! I come every Monday trying to learn about god and I get treated like I am dirt on the bottom of your shoes. No one will even talk to me no matter how hard to try to be everyone friend!’ I yell at the teacher. The look on the teachers face looked like I just shot someone. Get out of my class room he yells at me. I look down at my god loves all book, as a single tear falls on to it, I pick it up and I start to rip it up. I look around and they were all smiling, and giggling. Like it was the funniest thing they ever seen. I called my mom sobbing, and gasping for air telling her to pick me up. I get home and in a blind rage of sadness, I find a orange prescription bottle. I didn’t even look at what kind they were, I pour a handful into my hand and swallow. I recovered from that night but after that, I was tired trying to appease everyone. if I haven't done what I did then I would have never realized that my happiness and my gender identity was more important than my religion. After that I never went back to ccd and I NEVER let anyone try and steal a piece of me again. __1.__What is your idea of perfect happiness?
My idea of perfect happiness is, something I will never have. For when I was in my mothers womb, that my body developed as female and not just my brain. Because I could have a normal life, not to worry if ill be attacked or raped because of my gender identity, to date, get married and to get pregnant and have my own children. __2.__What is your greatest fear? My greatest fear is to be alone. When I get older I want to share my life with someone, adopt some kids have a family. my greatest fear is that I wont have that and grow old and alone. __3.__What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? The trait I most deplore about myself is that see the good over the bad in someone. I see the good way more than the bad, and most times I get hurt because I see the good over showering the bad. __4.__What is the trait you most deplore in others? The trait I most deplore in others is dishonesty. When someone lies to you it takes something away from that trust you have for them __5.__Which living person do you most admire? Little monsters put your paws up, The person I most admire living is lady gaga, hands down. I’ve been a fan since I was in third grade, I fed of of the weirdness, openness and the strength she put into the world so I could survive daily bullying. My favorite quote of hers ‘my past is like and unfinished painting, and as the artist of that painting I must fill in all the ugly holes to make it beautiful again.’ __6.__What is your greatest extravagance? My greatest extravagance was definitely hair extensions, Thin hair is a bitch. __7.__What is your current state of mind? My current state of mind is always fluctuating, so I never had a current state of mind. __8.__What do you consider the most overrated virtue? The most overrated virtue is religion. People use religion to justify hate and oppression. __9.__On what occasion do you lie? The occasion when I lie is when I’m trying to get me and my friends out of jams. With any authority figure, popo, parents, teachers and many more. __10.__What do you most dislike about your appearance? I was always taught by my mother that I cant dislike my appearance because I look like her. Because if I say I hate something about myself I was saying it about her. But we all have something we don’t like about our selfs, I have to say my double chin lulzzz. __11.__Which living person do you most despise? __12.__What is the quality you most like in a man? The quality I like most in a man is loyalty. __13.__What is the quality you most like in a woman? I dont swing that way but the quality I like most in women is the strength we have. __14.__Which words or phrases do you most overuse? The words and phrases I most overuse according to my best friend is, okay girl, whats the tea?, bitch And baby. __15.__What or who is the greatest love of your life? My greatest love of my life is Myself until I find someone worth sharing the love I have for myself with them. __16.__When and where were you happiest? When and where I am most happy is anywhere and with my best friend Kaitlyn. __17.__Which talent would you most like to have? I dont know if this counts as a talent but the talent would like to have is the talent of understanding motherfucking math. __18.__If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? The one thing I would change is my sex. If any trans person says ; oh yeah bro, I love being trans its such a blessing, I would never change it.’ Its a god damn liar! __19.__What do you consider your greatest achievement? My greatest achievements are wining my diving championship and graduating high school. __20.__If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be? If I could die and come back as a person or thing I would deff come back as a mermaid. __21.__Where would you most like to live? Id like to live in the city, somewhere busy. __22.__What is your most treasured possession? My most treasured possession is my necklace my mom gave to me for Christmas freshman year. __23.__What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery? The lowest depth of misery is losing someone you love so much. When the doctors told us my mom wasn’t going to wake up from the coma, it felt like my heart exploded in my chest. That the heart that loved my dad, my brothers and me was to weak to keep going, a piece of me died and that was truly misery. __24.__What is your favorite occupation? my favorite occupation was deff being a child. __25.__What is your most marked characteristic? My most marked characteristic is probably my hair, I always get compliments on it. __26.__What do you most value in your friends? What I value in friends is humor, honesty, love and knowing they got you when you don’t have yourself. __27.__Who are your favorite writers? I dont have any favorite writers, lol srry. _28.__Who is your hero of fiction? My hero of fiction is most defiantly bonnie Bennett from the mother fucking vampire diaries. She’s a witch, a strong ass bitch and literally died for her friends. __29.__Which historical figure do you most identify with? The historical figure I identify with is Lili Elbe. She was born Einar Andreas Wegener in Denmark 1882. She was a lesbian transgender women. she was among the first transgender women to under go sex reassignment surgery. She was also a painter and one of the first transgender models. __30.__Who are your heroes in real life? My heroes in real life are DR Martin Luther jr, lady gaga __31.__What are your favorite names? My favorite names are Janessah, Josephine, Joslyn, clementine(witch is the name I give to stranger when they ask me my name, and they seem creppy.) and Angelica. I am going to use these to name my children. __32.__What is it that you most dislike? I dislike ignorance. __33.__What is your greatest regret? My greatest regret is letting my abusive friendship go on for so long. __34.__How would you like to die? Peacefully in my sleep when I’m old as shit. __35.__What is your motto? My motto is ‘ I don’t give a FUCK about what people think of me, because at the end of the day I don’t go home to them’ |
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